This blog is dedicated to my mom!!!!

Hello everyone, my mom has been gone for three years today, I would like to say this was a very sad day for me. Susan couldn't have said it any better, I long to hold her one more time, To just see her beautiful face and the memorable smile she shared with everyone. You know every day wasn't a sad day while she was in the hospital I can remember sitting at her bedside and her looking at me and she just started rubbing my hair and saying "how pretty it was" no matter how sick she was she always said something nice and I am sure my hair was a mess.

My mom was always thinking of others the day she went to the doctor in Oct. I had taken off to go with her and she called me and said they changed her apt. I said "Ok I will just go to work" needless to say they didn't change her apt. She knew she was going to get bad news and when she got there they told her she only had 4 months to live afterwards her and dad went to Avondale Park this is where they spent a lot of their days and dad said they hugged and cried and she asked him to promise not to tell us because she wanted life to be as normal as it can be, how selfless can this be. This was really hard on my dad to handle this news by himself but he granted her, her wish.

I remember when she came home Pam and I were giving her a bath and we heated everything, her bedsheets, her covers, every towel she had (no kidding) and we bathe her and when she got out we immediately started covering her with all the hot towels and she sat in that chair and said "I really like this, yall can do this all the time and she gave us a little smirk and that was enough satisfaction for us.

You know the feelings never change, the love never fades it just gets stronger in my heart, the yearning to be with her is very strong and I look forward to seeing her in heaven when it is my time to get there, there is never a day go by that I don't have a memory of her. There toward the end she started telling people that visited her that you were either on her prayer list or her love list where that came from I don't know but that is how she felt. I remember one night I was at their house and dad mom and I was outside and dad looked up and saw a bright star and he asked my mom to come over there with him at the steps and they stood there and made a wish. At night when I look up at the sky and see all the bright stars I think of that moment and say a prayer and thank God for all the wonderful memories I have and for giving me these memories and lots more.

Sorry this is a sad blog but I had to do something because my heart was aching and sometimes blogging makes me feel better.